Category Archives: Blogging

Wine

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Most of you know, I’m rather partial to a glass of wine of an evening. I make so secret of this. I didn’t drink for about 18 months while I was pregnant and while Chops was breastfeeding, but after she started only wanting a feed last thing at night I saw no harm in having an occasional glass- probably once a week if that. Now I’m the first to admit, the frequency of this habit has increased since then. I reckon (being totally honest) that I have a glass of wine four or five nights a week. Once or twice a week that will be two glasses. And I’ll admit, that there … Continue reading →

Mask

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Therapy session number 3. Huge improvement on last time, that’s for sure. I’m sat in a cafe near Chops’ nursery waiting to go and pick her up and giving myself a bit of time to ‘debrief’ and reflect on the last hour. I spoke lots today to Ian about my job, similar things to what I was saying in my post ‘Changing’. I mentioned briefly how I’ve always felt that bar work is a real “Sing for your supper” job. There are both stereotypes and expectations placed on the person you’ll find behind the bar of a lively pub- you expect the staff to be well turned out and you … Continue reading →

One Million Reps

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So, on Monday I saw my best bud from uni and took great joy in telling him; “Hey, here’s a sentence we’ve been waiting to hear me say for a while- ‘I’m going to therapy tomorrow!’”. And we had a good laugh and, yeah. Very little else was said about it. That’s the way it is though I suppose. That’s what my blog is for, airing out all the stuff that the real world aren’t really sure how to react to. Yesterday, that something was therapy. Or counselling I suppose. Whatever name you wish to give going to your doctors surgery and chatting to a man you’ve never met for … Continue reading →

Viva La Onesie!

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Ladies and Gentlemen. Well. Probably not gentlemen… possibly Spencer & his slanket and one or two others but I’m reckoning, mainly, LADIES! If you follow me on twitter, you will have seen that in the last week, I have made a purchase that has indeed changed my life. You will have heard me refer to it on a daily (who am I kidding, several-times-a-daily) basis. Yes, I refer of course, to my Onesie. Mixed reactions have been made to said purchase, from the shared joy of fellow onesie owners, to the inevitable questions of those who have not yet taken the plunge (“don’t you get cold when you go for … Continue reading →

The Shreddies

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Blatantly stealing the title of this blog post from the lovely Alison at Five Go Blogging, today was my first day of attempting Jillian Michaels “30 Dy Shred” DVD. I’d love to have another Shreddies joke to hand but unfortunately I’m just not that funny *sigh*. I’ve never done any exercise DVDs before but have heard a lot of people talking about this one, frankly it’s the fact that it claims to get results in just 30 days from doing a 20 minute work-out that sways me. I borrowed a friends zumba DVD to try out at home but honestly? It just went on for too long. I could handle the work out, but … Continue reading →

Privacy

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Not so long after I started blogging I ran into trouble with my privacy having been infiltrated. Basically I’d told my Mum I was blogging but that I was doing it privately, had explained the reasons behind that. I’d blogged about some of the worst aspects of my relationship with Chops’ Dad, I’d written about being diagnosed with depression, I’d written at length that I was struggling. One evening, I got a comment, left anonymously saying “Do you not worry that someone you know might find and read this? Including your horrible ex?”. I freaked out, it turns out, rightly so. About two weeks later I wrote a post, which … Continue reading →

Why?

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Why do I blog? Easy. Not simple, but easy. I’ve always loved to write. I love the power of the written word, how you can become completely transported, fall in love with an idea, an imagined character or place. Last year, I met my boyfriends neighbour C*. You probably know of her if you blog or tweet, she’s a bit of a dab hand/expert with all her social media type stuff. C blogs & has done for years and out of curiosity I googled her to see what that meant exactly. I kind of knew what blogging was but had never really read any- it hadn’t interested me. From C’s … Continue reading →

Love After Love. A National Poetry Day Meme

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As it’s National Poetry Day, I’m sharing my all time favourite poem with you all. Love After Love The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other’s welcome, and say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was your self. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart. Take down the love letters from the bookshelf, the photographs, the desperate notes, peel your own image from the … Continue reading →

Twitter

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Tonight I’ve been following the #madblogawards tag on twitter. I wasn’t there of course, I was just sat in my bed, faffing about with my laptop, drinking wine and checking out everyone in their beautiful dresses. It’s almost midnight now & I’m sat in my daughters room waiting for her to go back to sleep and as it usually does around this time, my twitter feed has slowed right down. A thought just popped into my head and it’s niggling at me “what if I’d had twitter when things were starting to go wrong with her Dad?”. I know it one of those “what if’s” that I should never allow … Continue reading →

Thinking it all over.

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Hello You. Yes You. Thank you kindly for coming and reading my blog. This is now the third blogging URL I’ve had the cheek to take up… lets see how it goes this time. When I started blogging back in February I was in a pretty dark place. For a while, blogging was my therapy, through it I found an amazing network of support, made friends from all over the country and indeed the world, learnt a lot about myself and the people who are important to me. When I started I tried hard to keep myself anonymous, as so much of what I was writing was deeply personal and … Continue reading →