Twitter

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Tonight I’ve been following the #madblogawards tag on twitter. I wasn’t there of course, I was just sat in my bed, faffing about with my laptop, drinking wine and checking out everyone in their beautiful dresses. It’s almost midnight now & I’m sat in my daughters room waiting for her to go back to sleep and as it usually does around this time, my twitter feed has slowed right down. A thought just popped into my head and it’s niggling at me “what if I’d had twitter when things were starting to go wrong with her Dad?”. I know it one of those “what if’s” that I should never allow … Continue reading →

Millionaire

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Confession time: I think I’m a little bit addicted to ‘playing’ the lottery. Those of you who’ve been reading my blogs for a while or follow me on twitter will probably know that I HATE gambling. I have no time for it whatsoever. After being with a man who would steal my bank card to put money onto poker websites, or who took the back payment of Chops’ child benefit and put the whole lot into a fruit machine, I’ve come to take a fairly strong viewpoint on it. But that doesn’t stop me on Tuesdays & Fridays spending £2 on a Euromillions ticket. I’m not a proper scary addict … Continue reading →

Dad

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This isn’t the first time I’ve written a blog post about my Dad, but the old one is now gone with the olden blogs. And as I saw him today, he’s on my mind and I want to write about him. Last week, it will have been 41 years since my grandfather passed away of a heart attack and my Dad lost his own Dad. My Grandfather was just 50 years of age and my Dad was only 14. I of course, never met my Grandfather and I believe that who my Dad is as a parent has been shaped hugely by this loss. It did not escape our notice … Continue reading →

Scroungers

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Let me say first and foremost that yes, I am on benefits. Due to my status as a single parent of a 2 year old who will not qualify for those all important 15 hours of nursery until September 2013, I am currently a single, stay at home mother in receipt of Income Support, Housing Benefit and Council Tax Benefit. I also receive Child Benefit and Child Tax Credits, same as many parents working or otherwise get for their kids. I work part time, in a pub, one or two nights a week. From the money that I earn in my job, I am allowed to keep £20 a week, the rest will be … Continue reading →

The Honeymoon Period

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So at risk of boring you all to tears with reference to this new found love of mine (be warned, I’m just getting started), a conversation about G and myself got me thinking tonight about the so called “Honeymoon Phase”. Now I met G around April and we’ve been something of a fairly serious ‘thing’ since sometime around June. Now I know all those of you who have been together or even married and have children and mortgages may be scoffing at me “Serious? Three months and you’re calling it serious?!”. Well, yes actually I am. But that in itself is just my point. Already at this stage in the game, many a … Continue reading →

Scars

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On his right arm, my boyfriend G has a number of scars. He has a few in other places too, but the ones on his arm are the ones I’d wondered about. They are lines, two of them horizontal, and a couple of fainter ones diagonally between them, in a sort of backwards ‘Z’ shape. I’ve been wondering about them for a while because given how straight they are, there’s surely only a few ways he could have gotten them; either these are stab wounds, the skin has that slightly puckered, stretched look about it, or they have been done with a razor blade. They are too straight to have … Continue reading →

Croissants

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Some of you might know… Or, who knows, care even, that a great big part of things getting a whole lot better round here has to do with my new boyfriend. I say new, he’s not really new anymore but I wasn’t with him the last time I blogged. I just want to take a moment to celebrate his general awesome-ness by showing you these: Fresh, home made (he’s a chef) croissants that this particular man, who works 70 + hours a week, set his alarm to make sure he got up before Chops, snuck downstairs while I was sleeping in her bed and baked for me, along with homemade … Continue reading →

Thinking it all over.

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Hello You. Yes You. Thank you kindly for coming and reading my blog. This is now the third blogging URL I’ve had the cheek to take up… lets see how it goes this time. When I started blogging back in February I was in a pretty dark place. For a while, blogging was my therapy, through it I found an amazing network of support, made friends from all over the country and indeed the world, learnt a lot about myself and the people who are important to me. When I started I tried hard to keep myself anonymous, as so much of what I was writing was deeply personal and … Continue reading →